Who's Reading This? & Weekend with Family

Just curious, is someone reading this on a regular basis?  If so, what up?

Spent the weekend visiting some family, having a good time, going out with my cousins, celebrating a marriage and a retirement.  This was a family reception for the wedding I was at a couple weeks ago and it was also the last weekend of four in a row in which I was doing things for other people.  I SURVIVED!!  Just barely, I look terrible right now as I didn't get a whole lot of sleep this weekend.  It was fun, but it was also crazy as my family is certifiably insane.  It's a hard thing to describe.  My family members are different types of crazy.  Two of my cousins have several children, the first of which they had while in high school.  I'd like to say it was a youthful indiscretion but both of them had more opportunities than most.  Oh, and they happen to be sisters.  Older sister gets pregnant in high school, ends up having a still birth or miscarriage or something of that sort.  Very sad thing, it can't be easy for a mother to lose her baby.  In fact, losing a child, even and unborn child, has to be extremely difficult.  BUT, she then had a chance to go back to being a normal teenager, do things like finish high school without having to worry about raising a child.  Instead, she got pregnant again within a year.  Nothing wrong with having babies, but it's a lot better when they are planned and the parents are financially stable.  A couple years after this happened, the little sister of the cousin was in the exact same situation.  Pregnancy scare, ended up being miscarried, still got pregnant within a year.  That, inherently, doesn't make them crazy but having kids seems to have enhanced their crazy.  Does that happen with all women or with all parents for that matter?  I imagine it's tough with another being depending on you for their livelihood.  I don't know, but it was a fun weekend none the less.  I feel like everyone should experience a party with my family at some point in their life, it would make them appreciate their family.

I'm not making a whole lot of sense, whatever.  More stuff later.

American Dream 2.5

Rambling on a Wednesday night:

Heaven seems so far away, changing form from day to day.  It wasn't so long ago I longed for what I have and now I want something more.  They never said I'd find what I was looking for.  Life, liberty and pursuit of happiness, that's all I'm guaranteed.  Throw in death and taxes.  My gypsy soul keeps me wandering, refusing to settle for the standard "American Dream".  I'm not even sure I'll ever want a wife and 2.5 kids, house, white picket fence, 2 car garage.  That doesn't seem to be in the cards.  Not for me.  Not right now, maybe not ever.  I could find someone, there's plenty of girls in this world just waiting for someone to come along.  Someone who will make them feel safe, secure and stable.  Make mommy and daddy proud as they beam and think out loud "How Wonderful!" at the thought of fitting just right into that little picture book romance they've created in their head since childhood.  Scooping up somebody just because it's the "right time in your life" or you feel and obligation to "settle down", doesn't seem right to me.  Maybe you hear your biological clock ticking.  I hear nothing.  Just my thoughts, floating around my head.  I will not settle, it's not in my nature.  There have been few candidates in this world but at least I know there are some possibilities.  There's somebody out there for a nerd like me.