Shows to Watch

Walking Dead

I've actually only caught a couple episodes but now that season 1 is on Netflix it's time to catch up.  Intrigued so far but I'm not normally a zombie show/film person.  Mostly because they typically focus on gore and the substance can go by the wayside.

Community 

I finally started watching this show, yes I know it's in the 3rd season, and I cannot stop watching this show.  I've burned through the first two seasons in the last two weeks.  Almost fully caught up.  Abed is obviously the best character.  He makes awesome film and tv show references and it would be awesome if that's how he was in real life.  Although, I know that's not true.  Sadness.

Favorite Episode, Season 1, Episode 7 - Introduction to Statistics:  Crazy Halloween party, Pierce takes pills he shouldn't and loses his mind, Abed dresses like Batman while speaking in the ridiculous Christian Bale voice.

Weirdest Episode, Season 2, Episode 14 - Advanced Dungeons and Dragons: This episode was kind of a downer.  Pierce takes his dick attitude and senility to new lows as he once again ruins everything.  Such a strange episode.  

3 Things With Mystical Powers

1) Pho - This Vietnamese soup has mystical powers of healing.  If you have to eat soup because of a recent trip to the dentist, Pho will always be there to taste delicious and heal your wounds.  Also great for hangovers.

2) White Pants and Shorts - Something about white pants or shorts just makes women's asses look amazing.  There has to be someone in the stores who regulates the women who are allowed to purchase these items because I don't think I've ever seen an unattractive ass exploiting the power of white pants and shorts.

3)My Vehicle - It has almost 200,000 miles on it and I'm pretty sure it's currently running on hopes and dreams.  There really is no good explanation for why my car is still running but it is and I like it that way.

WTF Resumes?

Wtf is up with resumes?  You have to phrase everything a certain way to make people want you, it's like trying to pick up a girl at a bar.  You're buying drinks, spouting off these and giving that shit eating grin of yours in hopes she'll ring you up for a phone conversation (phone interview) that may or may not lead to her allowing you to buy dinner and even MORE drinks (in person interview) so maybe you might have a chance to make a move at the exact right time allowing you an opportunity to score.  (possible offer?)

The atmosphere at work continues to degrade.  There has been more layoffs and a benefits reduction recently. AWESOME!!  (Totally not awesome).  I have been applying for jobs recently, still not sure about this resume thing.  I've always had the hardest time putting together a resume I thought was good.  The resume I have now is alright.  I guess I'll use what I have for now and keep working on the resume at the same time.  I've gotten several e-mail from companies in the same city I currently live and work.  Sorry companies, I want to move.  I've contacted some and let them know this as they were nationwide companies.

Things have gone back to mundane with the ladies.  Not really any legitimate prospects but good times are being had when possible.  There has been very loose contact with the one that moved away, not sure if anything will ever come of that but might as well keep the lines of communication open.

Seriously, sweet potato fries and/or tots are an abomination.  They don't belong anywhere near my regular fries and tots.  Somebody please strike them down and send them back to hell where they belong.

Mounting Dissatisfaction

Quick post before I'm off to bed.  It's been an odd last two or three weeks.  I just kind of feel awkward much of the time because my dissatisfaction with my current situation is mounting.  Unfortunately, the job market isn't incredibly lucrative at the moment.  My work experience at my current employer has been very mixed which hasn't given me any particular specialty.  This makes it tough to meet the requirements for jobs when they want a certain amount of experience.  I have some experience in many areas but not a ton in one so it's a bit frustrating.  I will be applying for jobs I feel I'm close in most of the requirements and see what happens.

I'm Done With This Place

Seems the well is all dried up for quality women in the desert southwest.  Spent a few years here and found one , and only one, and as previously mentioned she's gone a week after I met her.  My job is no longer challenging or satisfying either and I was over the desert a while back.  Time to move on.  Official, hardcore job search begins.

Timing is Everything, Poor Timing Leads to Nothing

If you've read some of my previous posts I've spoken of some bad experiences with women.  Based on previous experiences, I'm certainly much more discerning (read: picky) about who I date and I haven't been interested in a relationship with anybody I've met in my current city even though I've been here for several years.  That all changed, at least for the week (timeline not of my choosing).

Last weekend I met some friends out and I was introduced to someone I'd never met or heard about before.  A girl who immediately struck me as fun and attractive.  I happen to like fun and attractive.  In the midst of hanging out in the group we talked to each other quite a bit, had an excellent time and she gave me her number (before I could even ask) and told me we should hang out.  And then she told me she's moving out of state in a couple weeks.  I thought, "Alright, we'll hang out anyway.  Might as well have a good time while she's here."  We had dinner a couple nights, drinks on several occasions and before I knew it the week was gone and so was she.  We had such a great time but the timing was incredibly poor.

I'm disappointed in the situation.  Finally, there is a young woman who is intelligent, attractive, fun and many other things I value when dating, and she is moving far, far away.  It just plain sucks.  I suppose I should be encouraged knowing that there are still women out there who meet (in this case, exceeds by a large margin) my standards and desires for someone I'd like to date.  Fun while it lasted.  Now back to the regularly scheduled programming.

Update: Monday - Seriously, this fucking sucks. If I were a bettin man, I'd put a lot of money on "Never going to see her again"

Update: Thursday - A few beers and some perspective certainly helps.  Still sucks but not as much as it did Monday.  This situation mixed with work and the mediocrity of the rest of my current social life have combined to make this week crappy.  I'm still fighting to salvage what I can from this week and I believe I have a good shot at an upturn tomorrow.  Stay tuned.

Nuggets of Wisdom and Hilarity

A few things I've heard recently that I thought were worthwhile, funny or both:
Sometimes, not always but sometimes, it helps to know what you're doing.

The we people could get with a degree in the field C students so we often looked elsewhere.  We found hiring someone who excelled at something, anything, and training them was better than hiring someone who spent 4 years proving they just didn't get it.

Conversation I heard at a bar:
"Yeah, she's really hot and actually really nice, but she is CRAZY!"
"If I had tits like that it'd drive me crazy too."

Names I'll Never Give to the Daughter I'm Never Having:

Because these names, or nicknames for these names, are for strippers:
CandaceTiffany
Brittney
Roxanne
Veronica
Josephine


Because most girls I know with this name are of the promiscuous variety:
Lisa
Denise
Sarah
Amanda
Amaris
Ana
Cheryl
Cynthia
Melissa
Marissa
Vicky
Irene
Valerie
Tina
Diana
Carla


Because I have friends/family with these names and they drive their parents (or me) crazy:
Tasha
Erin
Lindsy
Brenda
Debra
Diane
Jan/Janet/Janeil


Because I've had an awful personal experience with girls who have these names:
Andrea
Monica
Christine/Christina
Tanya
Because girls I know with this name are stupid:
Jessica
Elizabeth
Linda
Kristen/Kiersten/Kristie
Bridget

Because girls I know with this name are unstable mentally:Jaime

Eva
Courtney


Because there is one thing or another I don't like about girls with these names:
Vanessa
Maggie
Rosa/Rose


Holly


This to be added to and updated as time goes on.

Comic-Con 2011 - Not Just for Nerds

Comic-Con has Transcended the Nerd Culture
And The Con is now so much more.  Maybe nerd culture has transcended itself.  Whatever the case, even if the in vogue of being a nerd doesn't last, Comic-Con is not just for the traditionally stereotyped "nerd, geek, dweeb" etc.  Let's face it, we all have a little nerd in us even if we don't always want to let that flag fly.  And if you don't, you wish you did because us nerds are the driving force of everything you hold dear in life.

Here's a list of a few things at Comic-Con 2011
I'd be shocked if there were not at least a few things on here you are interested in:

Chuck, Dexter, Twilight, Burn Notice, Big Bang Theory, Futurama, Dragon Ball Z, Batman, Adventure Time, Konami, Capcom, Microsoft, Playstation (which had previews of many upcoming games), Comic Books of every kind, Art (painting, sculptures, drawings etc), LEGO

And that's just a short list.  I know, awesome right?  Check out the recap of my experience, with links to some related galleries at the bottom, and see what I did and saw and why you should get stoked to go no matter who you are.

COMIC-CON 2011
I went to Comic-Con in San Diego a few weekends ago and it was great!  I was expecting a lot of people but DAMN! It wasn't just a convention, it was like Comic-Con exploded all over downtown San Diego.  There were all kinds of events, nerds, cos-players and people just looking to have a good time spread all over the Gas Lamp district.  I loved every second of the entire experience.  This was my first time attending and I was only able to secure a one day pass for Saturday but here is what I experienced.

FRIDAY
I drove into San Diego Friday around lunch and went straight to the beach.  I highly recommend checking this out as it is always beautiful.  Found a bar with a patio, grabbed a beer and kicked back to enjoy the unbelievable weather and view.  I thought to myself, "I could be a bum here."  After soaking in the sun I checked in to the place I was staying and hit downtown.  I was riding solo that weekend but the situation didn't particularly bother me as I like the sense of adventure I get exploring things on my own from time to time.  I immediately found a South Park setup which was hosting South Park Song Karaoke, a number of food trucks next door, free pictures with characters, create your own South Park character kiosks and Big Wheel Racing!  You read that correctly and yes, it was excellent.  I also scored a free bag a Cheesy Poofs.  100% delicious.  Along my travels I managed to befriend some Irishmen and we met up with a couple friends I have in SD for a night on the town.  Drinks were flowing, people were dancing, and let me assure you there is no shortage of beautiful women in Southern California. All in all, it was a fun night and a great way to start the weekend.

SATURDAY: Comic-Con!
I started the day out in line for the limited autograph signings around 9am (WARNING: There are a lot of lines at Comic-Con).  It was an incredibly long line but once the doors opened, the line moved very quickly and I actually scored a ticket to get the Mythbusters Autographs (Kari, Grant and Tory)!  Who doesn't love Mythbusters?  That show is dope!  Then on to check out the exhibit hall.  I was unprepared for the sheer, massive size of the exhibit hall.  It seems to go on forever and is filled with every kind of entertainment you can imagine.  There were comics, movies, video games, art, you name it they had it.  The very first thing I happened to see?  Axe Cop booth.  It's a web comic written by a 7 year old, Malachai, and drawn by his older brother, Ethan.  It's hilarious, entertaining and probably the best thing I've ever seen.  Poked around and talked to a few of the artists and people selling comics before hitting the line for Ballroom 20 and the Terra Nova panel.  Some of the panels aren't so large and the line is very manageable but things in the large Ballrooms like 20 and H are going to be super popular so you need to get in line early.  As it stood I was a half hour early for the Terra Nova panel at 11am.  That didn't cut it, I ended up being shut out of that panel but not to worry as I was actually more interested in the panel after that, Futurama.  So I waited, played on my phone, caught a few pictures with some cos-players and scored a seat in the Futurama panel at 12:15.  It did not disappoint.  The voice actors were very funny and I got to see some sneak peaks of upcoming episodes.  On top of that, the panel announced they had just been renewed for two more season!  Got out of there and hit the exhibit hall for a bit and I just so happened to see a few people in line to get an autograph.  From who? Billy Zane!!!  Hell yeah!  I got a picture with Billy Zane!  Billy motha-fuckin Zane (his official full name, I believe)!  Shook his hand, told him I was a fan and he was really nice.  Him and Jeffrey Weissman (George McFly, Back to the Future II and III) were raising money for Michael J Fox's charity so I made a $10 donation for the picture.  I uploaded that picture, proceeded outside to get some fresh air and grab a bit of food from one of the food trucks while reveling in all the hateful comments from my friends who were jealous I got to meet Billy Zane.  It was delicious (the food and the revelry).  Hit the exhibit hall again and began exploring.  Quick run up to the autograph area for my Mythbusters autograph and then back down to the exhibit hall. So much to see it was almost overwhelming.  Snapped a bunch of pictures with cos-players.  Those cos-players really broke out the big guns for The Con.  A lot of excellent, very well done costumes.  I watched a few previews for upcoming movies and games, picked up an art book (autographed with a custom  sketch of me by the artist) and scored a free autograph picture from Carlos "El Mariachi" Gallardo who is currently involved with  in an animated zombie feature called Zombie Apocalypse.  Also ran into Brian Posehn walking around on the floor.  Snapped a picture of him while he was talking to someone else, creeper style, but I did overhear him say he always enjoys Comic-Con so I assume he goes every year.  Didn't want to bug him for a picture, seemed like he was taking a ton of them with fans already, but it was cool to see him there.  Finally retired from The Con for the day and explored the Gas Lamp a little more.  Good food a few drinks and Saturday was rounded out very nicely.

Wrap-Up
Sunday I had to make the trip home, and I was sad, but I had such a great time I have vowed to return in 2012 for ALL four days.  Apparently I will be attending with a few of my friends as most of them were insanely jealous and mad that I didn't invite them this year, guys and gals alike.  Sorry everyone, but it was a last minute thing when I bought my ticket.  I assure you, my friends, we shall descend upon San Diego in 2012 with avengeance.  Below are a few links to galleries from this year's Con and any updates I think of in the future.  Enjoy.


Cos-Play
Famous People, Panels and Cos-Players

Movie Soundtracks - Locked, Stocked and Snubbed

It always surprises me when looking up lists of the "Best Movie Soundtracks of All Time" that Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels is NEVER among the ranks.  Even when looking at the top 20, 30, 100.  It doesn't matter.  Go watch that movie, listen to the soundtrack and tell me it isn't awesome.  I dare you.  You'd be telling me a bold face lie.  The songs choices are magnificent for each scene and it adds up to an album you can really listen to straight through.  It's an album that features Dusty Springfield, James Brown (twice) and The Stooges.  Simply put: It-Is-Excellent! Here's a link to the Amazon page for the soundtrack.  Just listen to the preview of each song, you'll want to check out the full version of each song.  I honestly can't think of another movie for which I like the soundtrack better.  Can you name anything?

I Want to Move Home, Just Not Sure I Can Afford the Bar Tabs

WOMEN = AIRPORT SHUTTLE?
The last couple trips I've taken I've used a new airport shuttle system: women who like me.  It's a great system.  I don't have to inconvenience my friends or family for a ride, I might get to make out a little bit before I get on my plane, it's a great.  No, I don't feel bad at all.  In fact, it's my new system for whenever I go on trips.  If at all possible, get an attractive woman who likes you to drive you to the airport.  Of these two situations, one of them has a boyfriend and still hooks up with one of my friends.  I think she's under the impression that I don't know the latter part of that statement.  She also tell me that she likes me and misses me.  She's pretty sketchy.  So I don't feel bad about having her give me a ride to the airport because she wants to see me before I leave.  The other is a girl who's liked me since high school.  By liked, I mean she just wants to have sex with me (her words).  It hasn't happened yet because of certain cock-blocking factors (Cock Block Rate: 8) but it will happen.  What a great system, try it out yourself.

ECONOMIC RECOVERY
Slow and steady economic recovery.  I'm not talking about the world economy, I'm talking about my bank account.  I took a trip home a couple weeks ago and spent a ton of money.  I really want to move back there, I'm just not sure I can afford the bar tabs.  Caught up with a bunch of friends and had a blast.  What can I say, I'm a sucker for fun and when I'm having a great time I don't think too much about how much I'm spending if I know I have the money.  Yeah, it was a bit excessive but good times with good friends are the best.

3 Ridiculous Reasons People Don't Support USA Soccer

I'm a huge USA fan and was at the USA vs Mexico game a couple weeks ago.  The Rose Bowl is a great place to watch a game, loved the scenery and weather, but the lack of support for USA soccer sickens me.  There were 93,000+ people at the game that day and probably 70,000+ were rooting for Mexico.  I know most of the people in that stadium were not born, nor have they ever lived in Mexico.  They were born in America, they should support USA.  I hear ridiculous reasons why people do not support USA even though this is where they were born.

Reason 1: "I don't support USA because people in America don't care about soccer."

This has to be the most ridiculous of all the reasons.  There are millions people in the United States that say the same thing and choose a foreign country to root for in soccer.  All of you out there who believe this obviously care about soccer and you are American (can you see where I'm going with this) so if you supported USA we'd have the same following as every other country.

Reason 2:

Them:"I'm Mexican, I support Mexico"

Me: Weren't you born in [insert American city here]?

Them: "Well yeah, but I'm Mexican"

No, you're not Mexican.  You have Mexican heritage, but you were born in America, you are American.  The same goes for anybody else who has heritage from a foreign country.  If you were born in the US and live in the US you are American and you should support your country.

Reason 3: "Team USA isn't even made up of Americans, they have names like Bocanegra and Ching"

NEWSFLASH: America is not just white people, it is an incredibly diverse country.  Everybody knows that and as an American you should be proud of that diversity.

This are just the top three that come to mind, I'm sure there will be more I think of later.  It just doesn't make sense not to support USA in sports when you are an American.  People complain because Americans don't support their teams the way other countries do but what the complainers don't realize is THEY are the exact people they are complaining about.

Top Ten Cosmic Hip-Hop Songs

Top Ten Cosmic Hip-Hop Songs
Forever Begins - Common
Sunshine - Atmosphere
As The World Turns - Blackalicious
Gravity - Da Bush Babees
Astronomy - Black Star
Bring Back Pluto - Aesop Rock
Time and Space - Digable Planets
Intergalactic - Beastie Boys
Positive Contact - Deltron 3030
Fett's Vette - MC Chris

I was jamming to some hip-hop today and Bring Back Pluto by Aesop Rock played on random.  I really did  the entire None Shall Pass album but that particular track got me thinking about the best cosmic and cosmic related hip-hop songs so I decided to make a Top Ten.  The order listed isn't my ranking, just the best flow for all the tracks.  Hit the link to check them out on YouTube or you could always go to one o fmy personal favorite websites, GrooveShark, and make a playlist. Enjoy

Multitasking FTW!

People say multitasking isn't that great or efficient, but I think it depends on what you're doing.  Like if you're trying to send a text or read an e-mail but you have to go to the bathroom, that is easily a situation where multitasking is not only great but more efficient.  You're relieving your body of stress and trolling your friends on Facebook at the same time.  WIN!  So next time you're doing something on your phone, take a second to consider if it can wait until you're on the toilet.  Plenty of free time for you hands during that situation, at least I hope your hands are free while you're on the toilet.  If they're not, you're probably doing it wrong.  That, or you're a dirty bird.

Fear the Shadow Man!

Just another frame I drew in relation to the other two Shadow Man posts I made

Weekend Upgrade Package

WORK STATUS UPGRADE
On the plus side at work, I'm finally doing some things I want to do.  On the negative side, I haven't done this particularly type of task in five or six years so I seem to be really disappointing the person who is trying to teach me.  I'm going to try and put in extra hours this week to step my game up.  I truly do want to impress my current mentor because I respect them and I respect this work and what she's trying to teach me.  If I can pick it up and learn it well I will have an incredibly marketable skill but, more importantly, I will be extremely proud of this skill as many people don't have it and I will have learned from one of the best.  Judging from the way people talk about my mentor and vie for her time, she's probably the best in the entire company.  Here's to hoping I can make this happen.

FEMALE STATUS UPGRADE
I was recently introduced to young woman I think is mighty attractive.  She's also nerdy, fun and extremely cool.  Hard to beat a combination like that.  Not sure if she's diggin me or not but I intend to find out here in the near future.  Apparently there are people pulling strings for me in the background trying to make this happen.  That feels good, that people think highly enough of me to help me out like that.  Since the day I was introduced to this prospect other women seem to be really into me.  It's really strange.  Women want to talk to me, they want my number and invite me to hang out.  A waitress hit me up and said "hey, let's exchange information".  A WAITRESS! That never happens. Crazy ridiculous.  I'm certainly not complaining, it's awesome and fun and great and mind boggling all at the same time.  Women are strange creatures and we shall never understand the mystery of their ways.

WEEKEND FUN UPGRADE
Ridiculously fun weekend.  Went out on Friday, hung with some friends and caught the Green Lantern.  Mediocre at best, but fun hanging out with friends.  Had a blast.  Chilled on Saturday, got a few things done (but not too much, I was relaxing).  Sunday watched USA take down Jamaica in the Gold Cup. Excellent!  Then embarked on a journey of bicycles, water parks, pools, epic water balloon fights, slip and slides, relaxing in pools, beer, bag toss throw downs and more beer.  It was an amazing Sunday, best one I've had in ages.

I Don't Want to be Fat

The men in my family tend to have quote a few medical problems when they are overweight. High blood pressure, high cholesterol, things of that nature.  That is pretty much my motivation for working out and eating anything healthy. I also don't think it's attractive to be fat and I would be disappointed in myself if I were.  As an American I don't want to be a part of that stereotype either. You feel the same? Well you should. Our country needs a reboot in many ways and this is just one of them.

PSA: Keep It Clean, Watch Out for the Seam

I've never experience this before in my life until just recently so I wanted to put out a PSA for the men of the world:

DICK CHAFING IS NOT A JOKE
I am an active guy.  I run, swim, bike, play football, soccer and various other sporting activities.  I've always had a pretty copasetic situation going on down there save for the few times I've had some chafing between the thighs.  Nothing unusual.  Recently I ran out of clean underwear so I decided "I'll just wear some shorts under my pants today".  Well, that turned out to be the entirely wrong thing to do.  After walking around all day in jeans, then running after work and then playing a football game after running, the crotchal region was in a dire situation.  The seam on the inside, front of the shorts spent the entire day irritating me in such a way as to be extremely uncomfortable for the coming week (something which has just recently improved).  "Didn't you feel it happening throughout the day?"  Well you would think, but it actually wasn't all that uncomfortable.  It wasn't until late in the day when I first started feeling discomfort.  The next morning turned out to be the worst.

WHAT DO I DO?
If this does ever happen to you, and I hope it doesn't, I recommend keeping the chafed area clean and using neosporin+pain relief and anti-bacterial band-aids.  This combination will help keep it clean, pain and itch free.  The last thing you need is for you penis to become infected.  That is a situation I hope nobody ever has to deal with.

For all of you who thought the affliction of Dick Chafing was a joke, it most certainly is not.  Keep it clean and watch out for the seams.

A Weekend for Me, Stupidity, Illogicality, Annoyance, Dislike, Hatred

THE WEEKEND

FINALLY I had a weekend where I got to do what I wanted and not tend to somebody else's functions, events, needs and desires.  I got to hang out with friends, blow off some steam and genuinely enjoy myself on my own terms.  It was excellent.

INNER MONOLOGUE

I'm a bit more introspective than most people which tends to make me a bit more self aware (I like to think).  One thing I've learned about myself over the years is I have very little patience or tolerance for stupidity.  Stupidity and illogicality to be more specific.  I'm not saying everyone has to be a top scientist, mathematician, doctor etc, but the lack of ability to think for one's self and lack of common sense within society is simply staggering.  People who make decisions based on the most insane, illogical, nonsensical criteria irk me at my very core.  This extends into all aspects of life and conversation.  I've always fancied thinking for myself, making my own decisions based on logic and things I believe to be important.  When I meet people who say things like "I'm republican/democrat because my parents are" I can't help but feel sorry for them.  I knew a girl in college who would call her parents for consult with just about every decision in her life.  She was absolutely lost and confused at most times of the day.  And there was this other person . . . .

RESULTING PERCEPTION

BLAH BLAH BLAH you get the point.  These things just get on my nerves to the point where I become annoyed with the persons very presence.  If I'm continued to be subjected to this persons presence I begin to genuinely dislike them which, in certain extreme cases, has become hate in a few situations.

PERCEPTION AS A COPING MECHANISM

I've also notice I begin to dislike someone as a defense mechanism.  This mostly applies to my plight with women.  If I'm really into a young lady who happens to be interested in me but she has a boyfriend or starts going out with someone who is not me, I'm obviously not going to be happy with that.  I still have feelings for them and I feel I've been slighted just a bit.  Still ok, typically we remain friends because if I actually like someone it's because I enjoy their company and conversation.  But then there are still those feelings kicking around which I can't express or explore because the person they're meant for is taken.  This situation gets really frustrating and I become peeved at the person the feelings are directed because they're making me feel this way and causing me issue.  It's ridiculous but it helps me keep my sanity and deal with the situation.  I never lash out at the person, it's more of an internal defense mechanism to keep the feelings I have from taking over.  I suppose I developed it over time to cope with the situation instead of wallowing in pain and self pity.  Much better I think.

Who's Reading This? & Weekend with Family

Just curious, is someone reading this on a regular basis?  If so, what up?

Spent the weekend visiting some family, having a good time, going out with my cousins, celebrating a marriage and a retirement.  This was a family reception for the wedding I was at a couple weeks ago and it was also the last weekend of four in a row in which I was doing things for other people.  I SURVIVED!!  Just barely, I look terrible right now as I didn't get a whole lot of sleep this weekend.  It was fun, but it was also crazy as my family is certifiably insane.  It's a hard thing to describe.  My family members are different types of crazy.  Two of my cousins have several children, the first of which they had while in high school.  I'd like to say it was a youthful indiscretion but both of them had more opportunities than most.  Oh, and they happen to be sisters.  Older sister gets pregnant in high school, ends up having a still birth or miscarriage or something of that sort.  Very sad thing, it can't be easy for a mother to lose her baby.  In fact, losing a child, even and unborn child, has to be extremely difficult.  BUT, she then had a chance to go back to being a normal teenager, do things like finish high school without having to worry about raising a child.  Instead, she got pregnant again within a year.  Nothing wrong with having babies, but it's a lot better when they are planned and the parents are financially stable.  A couple years after this happened, the little sister of the cousin was in the exact same situation.  Pregnancy scare, ended up being miscarried, still got pregnant within a year.  That, inherently, doesn't make them crazy but having kids seems to have enhanced their crazy.  Does that happen with all women or with all parents for that matter?  I imagine it's tough with another being depending on you for their livelihood.  I don't know, but it was a fun weekend none the less.  I feel like everyone should experience a party with my family at some point in their life, it would make them appreciate their family.

I'm not making a whole lot of sense, whatever.  More stuff later.

Hangover Sleuthing

THE NIGHT OUT
When I go out and party with friends, especially friends I haven't seen in a while, there are usually parts of the night which have been omitted from my memory.  Sometimes by choice but usually due to alcohol consumption.  This latest weekend was no exception.  I went out Thursday, started the night off with my brother and a few of his friends.  After several hours of beer, shots and shuffleboard, it was close to midnight and my friends started showing up.  So of course I had to celebrate the arrival with more shots causing my brother's friend to puke underneath a high top table we were standing at in the corner.  Someone nobody noticed and we still served.  I left my brother's company and proceeded to a gentleman's establishment where a friend was tending bar.  I asked for shots of anything (bad decision) so he made me star f*!%ers.  But instead of vodka, he made them with 151 . . . I don't remember anything after that.  I don't even remember looking at the girls, probably because my vision was too blurred to see as far as the stage through all the smoke, black light and shattered dreams.  Apparently I demanded another round of the same shot, which we took, and then my friend bought a round of patron.  This all occurred in a matter of 45 minutes.  Then it was closing time and we hit up a late night establishment for some food and I promptly passed out on my friend's couch when we arrived at his place.

PICKING UP THE PIECES
I spent the next morning eating ibuprofen and digging through my pockets for clues.  Much to my dismay, I found out I spent over $300 that night.  Oh well, I had an awesome time.  But then I found $100 in my breast pocket, so that eased my pain a bit.  I also made a cursory look through my phone.  No crazy outgoing texts, nice.  What's this?  A phone number from some girl?  A few mental images flash through my head, none of them with a face.  All I remember is a skirt and some really nice legs.  After questioning my friends I found out I somehow hit on a pretty girl AND got her phone number.  In words of my friend, "You were so wasted, I was going to step in but then, all of a sudden, you got really focused.  You were speaking coherently and everything for a couple minutes."  This is where the sleuthing really picks up and a whole lot of other nights make sense.  Whenever I have one of these Long Lost Friend Reunion Party Nights I fairly consistently wake up with missing memories and phone numbers or pictures of me and some girl(s).

THE QUESTIONS
1) How do I continue to get served when I'm so drunk?
                I consistently get asked this question by myself and my friends.  I wake up vaguely remembering a cab ride home and thinking I got ripped off by a cabbie because I'm missing $40 more than the cab ride should've cost.  Only after looking through a crumpled receipt or checking my credit card statement do I realize I actually there was a third bar I attended of which I have no recollection.

2) How do I possibly talk to these girls and get their numbers?
                It's not that I'm complaining too much except I'd like to remember SOME details about these girls.  That way I can actually call them and ask them to come hang out at a bar and actually remember something we talked about.  I'm sure I asked what they did for a living and if they were in school and I was probably genuinely interested.  The shit part, and this has happened, is if I invite them or run into them later, I tend to ask the same questions.  I can't help it, those are my go to questions when starting a conversation and getting to know someone.
3) How do you manage to get a cab and give them directions to take you home?

THE ANSWERS
This was a landmark situation.  Usually, when I drink to blackout status, my friends are on the same level because we spend the whole night together.  This time, I spent half the night with one group and then moved on to hanging out with another group who were sober halfway through the night.  Hence, I actually had a witness of many of the shenanigans.
1, 2 & 3) Apparently, the answer to all three questions is related with slight variations.  While drunk, I maintain the ability to focus for very short periods of time to achieve important objectives.  Obviously, getting drinks is extremely important.  There are certain rules I generally follow even when I'm sober and they seem to carry over.  Know what you want when the bartender gets to you, don't act like a jackass when at the bar to order a drink, don't say too much to the bartender especially if they are super busy or seem to be in a bad mood, act as sober as possible if possible, don't rush the bartender they will get to you when they can.  Speaking to girls is also very important for any guy.  I'm a witty guy and many girls find this charming especially when they've had a couple drinks.  I'm also a lot more likely to buy girls drinks when I've been drinking.  This all seems to work in my favor.  Last, but not least, I really like making it to my own house if I can.  A cab is always worth it as a DUI is a brutal and unrelenting burden.  NO THANK YOU.  I pour myself into a cab, often fearlessly pre-negotiating the price, and proceed to give directions.  My drunk self is very good with directions, I am often the one who remembers where we parked when the DD forgets.  I'm that good.  I am friendly so I engage in small talk with the cab driver because it's fun and I need to stay awake.  I make it home, tip the cabbie, get into my place and usually wake up with most of my clothes still on.

THE DREAM
One day, a government agent with show up on my doorstep in an attempt to recruit me because I have "a very special set of skills."  To which I will reply, "I've been waiting my whole life for this."  My drinking abilities + ability to focus on important tasks + morning after sleuthing skills will one day serve our country.  When that day comes, I will be ready.  Until then, I will continue the rigorous training because I'm a patriot.  You're welcome America.

Another Week, Another Wedding

No, I am not a wedding crasher.  I actually know all the people in these weddings and this is the third wedding I have been a groomsman within the last calender year.  Actually, the first wedding I was in happened to be Memorial Day weekend last year in the same city with the reception taking place in the same venue.  It seems I have come full circle in this wedding craziness.  I need a break though.

PLANNING
On the plus side, I had an awesome time.  This was my best friend's wedding and the only wedding of which I 100% approve and 100% wanted to be present.  It was also the only wedding where the wedding party had their shit together.  Everything was well planned, they weren't dropping task list bombs on me the night before the wedding which happened to me at one of the weddings.  There was no confusion as to where we needed to be or when we needed to be there.  The reception hall was less than half a mile from the church.The bridesmaid dresses were pretty and I didn't have to wear an ugly tuxedo, we wore black suits with skinny ties, tie bars and a pocket square which were all picked out and purchased by the groom.  The black suit was an awesome choice because I already owned one.  I don't have a problem with tuxedos except the weddings in which I wore a tux they were non-traditional so the only option was renting.  I would have loved to just buy a tuxedo and own it instead of renting one for $200.



OPEN BAR
OPEN BAR DUDE!!! This is also the only wedding I went to which was full service open bar with four kegs, one of which was Shiner Bock.  Well done.  There were also free cigars which were pretty good as well.  The food was good and there were hors d'oeuvres being served when the guests first arrived so that was extremely nice.  Every other wedding I went to had quite a long wait between arrival and food with no appetizers in between.  Poor planning I say.  One negative mark on the catering company, I specifically asked for what time last call was and I was told 11:45pm.  At 11:30pm, I and my friends made our way to the bar to slam a few beers and shots in the last fifteen minutes of serving.  Much to our dismay, we were informed that cutoff policy for the hall was 11:30pm so we couldn't get anything.  I was so fuckin pissed.  No last call announcement AND the last call time I was quoted was incorrect.  Bullshit.  Related Note: Why is the hottest girl at the wedding always some girl working for the catering company?  She's also usually the dumbest, ask someone else if you have any important questions like "What time is last call?"

MUSIC
Mexican wedding so there were mariachis and a lot of spanish music.  Great fun dancing and a few really fun traditions.  Plus, everyone at a Mexican wedding drinks so that tends to mean a good time.  The mariachis left and then there was a band who played a variety of music but with the massive amount of Mexicans attending, the merengue, cumbia and various other spanish music was the type that got people out of their seats and on the dance floor.

WRAP UP
The end of the reception was the only crappy part.  All the bridesmaids, except for one, bailed about an hour before the reception was over as did most of the groomsmen. I hung around like a good friend because there is not usually a plan for getting all the presents and whatever else out of the reception hall.  The few of us who were left helped load up the vehicles and spent an hour while the decision makers figured out the deal.  It took way longer than it should.  After that was sorted, we finally got to leave and go to a bar with only thirty minutes left to drink by the time we got there.

Overall this was by far the BEST wedding I've ever been to or been a part of, HANDS DOWN.  Everything was better executed and the people were a lot more fun.  I also got to see a lot more friends I haven't seen in quite a while so it was great.  Best wishes to my friends on their marriage.

PS: It never fails, every wedding I go to I get asked "When are you getting married?"  It's a bit annoying since most of the people who ask are really serious.  Amongst friends we always joke about it but the adults, usually aunts, uncles and parents, are always very serious and continually introducing you to their other family members in hopes of marrying off some of the other females in the family.  Just think this is odd, that's all.

Jesus Christ, What a Weekend in New Orleans

Took a trip to New Orleans for a friend's bachelor party.  Had a waaaaaay better time than the last time I was there for the same reason.  Different bachelor, different people who were a lot more fun, wanted to experience the city in all it's local cajun food eating, bourbon street partying, bead throwing, drunken gambling glory.  So much fun.  I also feel a whole lot like garbage today.  Probably to do with the fact I was out partying until 5 or 6 am Friday and Saturday.  Met two very interesting women as well.  Both writers which struck me as interesting.  They were great to hang out with and actually extremely interesting conversationalists.

I wonder if these women are vegetarians?  Confused about that question?  Let me explain.  I was recently thinking about the very short list of women I'm extremely attracted to and would probably consider dating, and I realized they all might be vegetarians/vegans aka veggies (there's one I don't know about yet, but I'm sleuthing).  I thought it was an interesting correlation.  I've been using my powers of reasoning and deduction to figure out why this might be the case.  In my experience, veggies tend to be more health conscious, not just in what they eat but also with exercise and physical activity in general.  I happen to be attracted to women who are fit so this health conscious activity helps.  Veggies also tend to have liberal views which jives with a lot of my own personal thinking so we tend to get a long, at least decently, during worldly and political discussions.  I am not a vegetarian and I don't believe I'd ever be one so as long as a veggie doesn't try and tell me how I should eat we will be fine.  I'm actually a pretty health conscious eater myself, I just happen to eat meat in addition to the vegetables.  I've also been increasingly more attracted to hipster girls and a large percentage I've met have been veggies.  Hmmmm, I'll turn this over in my head for a while and keep you posted.

I've mentioned previously that I want to move out of my current desert home.  I'm not a fan.  It seems a bit telling that every time I got out of town (Houston and New Orleans the last two trips) I meet some interesting and seemingly worth while women.  Maybe the well in the desert is a bit dried up in more ways than one.

Speaking of women, the California girl, who got divorced not so long ago and started dating someone else not so long after that, sent me an interesting e-mail.  It was a message about a few things but she sprinkles in some things about our back and fourth saying she hopes I meet an awesome girl and she's sad that I live out of state (in the context she seems to be eluding that she wants or wanted to date me . . .?) and there was sort of a "oh by the way" moment where she tosses out that she's already moved in with the new beau.  If you've read any posts from me before you know it wasn't too long ago we were very flirty with one another and she really wanted me to come out and visit.  I can't say that I'm very shocked even though I do think the move in is unusually fast for anybody.  I've also mentioned that she seems like a relationship person given the fact that she's already been married twice, hence the reason I wasn't shocked, but I was definitely surprised.

Life and Uncertainty, Just the Way it is

Lots of uncertainty in my life right now.  Few people are getting the boot at work.  Lay-offs are shitty.  I don't think I'm going to get laid off since I'm one of the cheaper workers (fairly new, etc) and I have a project but that isn't exactly a guarantee.  Plus this job isn't exactly where I want to be so I'm looking around.  Trying to move somewhere else that will hopefully be cool and a job that I love.  Who knows.  I loved this job for the first 7 months of work, then I got bounced around to different projects, all of which were kind of mind numbing, so now I'm doing things that I feel are very boring.  Sucks.  And now that I'm looking around for work I'm remembering how time consuming and a bit difficult job hunting can be.

On a personal level, I'm stuck between creative projects.  Not unusual for me, I bounce around a lot with that sort of thing, its just my personality.  I wish I could be more focused, maybe I just have to make an active effort but that seems like it might take the fun out of things.  I feel like I need to have better follow through though.  Like I said, uncertainty, but at least I have control over these personal projects and creations.  I'd like to eventually finish one so I can show off a finished product to people.

OUCH! My finger! That's gonna leave a mark.

I knew it.  What did I write last time?  I felt like my window of opportunity was sliding shut.  I was totally right.  I wrote down my prediction just in time for that window to slam down on my finger.  Not a good feeling, but it's certainly better than losing a hand.  I was fairly prepared for this to happen given the circumstances.  We don't live anywhere near each other and she is obviously a relationship person.  It was only a matter of time before she ended up in another one.  "Hey, that's not fair, maybe he's the right own for her." Yeah, great, I honestly hope she is happy.  She's a great person and deserves happiness but the fact of the matter is, if someone really wants to be in a relationship they're going to make it happen.  This is true for 99.9$ of people.  I've said before most people aren't like me in the sense that I'm not going to get into a relationship just because I feel like I want a significant other.  We'll see what happen, I haven't asked any questions and honestly I'm a bit curious but I don't think I really want to know.  What is that going to do for me?  If I had to bet I'd bet this is just a rebound relationship.  It will be fully charged and short lived.  Makes sense for the time frame after her previous long term commitment and, yes, it may just be wishful thinking since I'd still like to go visit and it would be way better if she wasn't in a relationship when I do.  So now the question is when do I go to for the visit?

I Got a Fever!

Man, I feel a bit ridiculous right now.  I've got it pretty bad.  This young lady is on my mind more often than I'd like to admit and we don't even live in the same place.  I'm not sure if it'd be harder or easier if we did live close together.  All I know is I'd like to have a chance with this one if I could.  Not sure where or what that would lead to but I feel like the window of opportunity will be sliding shut before I get that chance.

On a totally unrelated note: Finally purchased the Lupe Fiasco - Lasers album.  Haven't had a chance to listen to it but I'm pretty excited.  I know what I'll be jammin in my vehicle tomorrow.  I will be posting about that after and either saying that it's great or how much I hate it.  Hopefully more of the former.

News Flash: Weddings Aren't So Bad

Well that wedding certainly went better than I thought.  It was pretty fun.  Not as fun as a regular night out with the friends but a good time none the less.  It wasn't quite traditional, which made it a little more relaxed, but I always feel like I'm under the microscope at weddings.  All formal events for that matter.  It's never my even though, so I don't want to screw it up.  Hopefully my friend will only be getting married once and her and her husband deserve to have their day.  I got to see a bunch of people I haven't seen in quite a while, so that was cool.  I also realized something, a number of the people at the wedding who I "knew" and talked to, I realized I didn't really know that well.  Basically we went to a lot of the same parties.  hahaha.  I just thought that was funny.  They are fun people, so that helped.  A few closer friends were there and that was also nice.  Plus I was in my hometown so I had a bit of time to see some family and party with other friends around town.  Always a good time.  I guess weddings aren't THAT bad, but still not my preferred thing to do.  On the big plus side, I look awesome in a suit.

Another Wedding

Some interesting developments lately.  The young lady I'm into seems to be pretty into me as well.  So I got that goin for me.  But she still lives in another state.  WOMP womp.  Not too bad though.  I'm supposed to go and visit and I guess we'll see how things go from there.  I am currently at the airport, on my way to yet another of my friends weddings.  This shit is getting annoying.  Can people stop getting married for one god damned second so I don't have to buy a fucking plane ticket and get a hotel and a bunch of other shit?  I mean yes, I'd spend the money on a trip anyway, but it would be somewhere I wanted to go and things I wanted to do.  Hanging out at a church and reception hall are not my two most favorite things in the world.  Sorry to break it to you.  I still think it's funny when I get the invitation and there is the little card telling me where the bride and groom are registered. Do you know how much it's going to cost just for me to be there?  That's your wedding gift.  You are welcome. You get one shot.  If you ever get married again, don't expect me to be there.  Speaking of marriage, this girl really isn't that into marriage at the moment on account of her previous marriage now being defunct.  I honestly don't think that will last forever.  Most women have periods of time where they aren't interested in that kind of relationship but that typically fades.  Not for all women mind you.  I do know some who have never been interested in marriage and never will be.  They are in their early to mid thirties and it just has never appealed to them.  That's excellent to me.  To know what they want in this world is very cool and attractive, in my opinion.  More women should know what they want.

American Dream 2.5

Rambling on a Wednesday night:

Heaven seems so far away, changing form from day to day.  It wasn't so long ago I longed for what I have and now I want something more.  They never said I'd find what I was looking for.  Life, liberty and pursuit of happiness, that's all I'm guaranteed.  Throw in death and taxes.  My gypsy soul keeps me wandering, refusing to settle for the standard "American Dream".  I'm not even sure I'll ever want a wife and 2.5 kids, house, white picket fence, 2 car garage.  That doesn't seem to be in the cards.  Not for me.  Not right now, maybe not ever.  I could find someone, there's plenty of girls in this world just waiting for someone to come along.  Someone who will make them feel safe, secure and stable.  Make mommy and daddy proud as they beam and think out loud "How Wonderful!" at the thought of fitting just right into that little picture book romance they've created in their head since childhood.  Scooping up somebody just because it's the "right time in your life" or you feel and obligation to "settle down", doesn't seem right to me.  Maybe you hear your biological clock ticking.  I hear nothing.  Just my thoughts, floating around my head.  I will not settle, it's not in my nature.  There have been few candidates in this world but at least I know there are some possibilities.  There's somebody out there for a nerd like me.

Gypsy Soul

Seems I was born a wanderer in many ways.  Some things I like to stay the same but often I crave change.  Living in the same city I get restless.  Is this because I like moving around or because I'm not truly happy where I am?  I like to think it's the latter and that I will someday find myself in one place and constantly happy.  I am happy most of the time but there are certain things I'm not a big fan of at the moment.  Most people here, the desert sucks in general.  I miss grass and trees in peoples yards.  It's in some places but it's not exactly practical in the desert, I understand that and it pretty much means this isn't the place for me.  On top of that, 4 months of blistering hot weather is not cool with me.  I have a really hard time with the dry heat.  Humidity sucks, but I can deal with it better than a place that makes me feel like I'm in an oven.  I grew up with humidity and I would prefer a hot, humid summer to an extremely hot, dry summer.  Work is ok but I'd like some change.  Although I am finally in a position to learn some truly valuable skills for the future.  I definitely want to take full advantage of this opportunity.  There are a number of things that are annoying at my current job but not awful.  Just time for change I think.  My rambling tendencies carry over into many parts of my life.  Often times I start out into a girl and as time goes on that fades and I'm ready to move on.  I'm not really sure what that means.  Again, I like to assume the best.  I'm not the type of person to settle so as I get to know a person more and more and that angel suit starts to come off I really get an idea of whether I want to invest in that person.  That goes for all relationships I forge.  Some people just aren't worth any kind of investment.  It took me a while but I have found some great people here, honestly they are the only people making life bearable.  I really need to take another vacation somewhere awesome and new.  I've had to spend most/all of my travel money going to and being in weddings.  They have become something of a burden in most cases.  Very few I don't mind attending.  I want so much more out of life and I don't believe I can accomplish it while slaving away for someone else's dollar.  Just have to see where this gypsy soul takes me.

The Landscape of War

Wars don't just change maps they change men, Taking lives of the living and the dead. Hollowed out shadows of the people we once knew or hardened, icy inside struggling to break through. Just collateral damage written off and forgotten, Fat Cats buying peace of mind for their rotten souls. Everyone knows but nobody says a thing, that elephant in the room isn't seen as they turn blind eyes and the cries fall on deaf ears. The sheeple go where the politicians say, believe the scare tactics and drink the kool-aid. Fabrications and stories about American grace and glory when the graves and gory details are dismissed, our supposed objectives missed.  False intel justifies our presence, No WMDs, no accountability or backlash for negligence. We just go about our lives acting righteously indignant, afraid to unite against this egregious infringement. Other countries riot over tuition being raised, we watch youtube videos of guys getting tased while eating lays gaining weight as the days, go by I try to do my part I guess it's a start but not enough. If you want something done, put up or shut up, its you against the world and the masses won't listen to reason, you disagree and the government cries treason, if only you could see, get the facts and think for yourselves it's the only way this place can be helped. Until then I'll have to conquer my doubts and begin my quest from the inside out.

Lupe Fiasco - Lasers

Caught a few songs of Lupe Fiasco's third album Lasers on GrooveShark.  Of the songs I heard the track Space Love is absolutely JAMMIN!  Even though GrooveShark says it's from Lasers, it's actually not.  The other songs are very good as well so no big deal.  Good hip-hop artists tend to follow a pattern in my experience, three solid albums and then they just fall off.  Look at Kanye West.  College Dropout, Late Registration and Graduation are all excellent (save for a few songs), 808s and Heartbreak was awful.  Very little sweet lyrical rapping, a quality which defines the best in hip-hop, and a lot of trendy, shitty auto-tune.  Is it shitty because it's trendy?  Well, partially because it gets played out, but mostly because it has always been garbage even before it was trendy.  My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy?  Over-produced vomit propagating into your ear drums.  What's that you say?  You love those albums?  Well I'm sorry to hear that you are lying to yourself.  Just be honest, listen to his first three albums and then listen to the last two.  You'll hear the difference and it will be substantial.

That all being said, I expected Lupe's third album to be excellent and, from what I've heard, he hasn't disappointed.  Now the true test for all time, can he keep it going on album four and beyond?  Time will tell.  Until then, I'm gonna be feeling the Space Love.

Late Night Monday

Seems Mondays get a bit late for me. I don't know why. Pretty good evening. Been really stuck on a girl that's recently back on the market. Honestly? If I lived in the same place I'd date this girl in a second. I mean I was always attracted to her. I guess I didn't let my mind think about her too much, prospect wise, because she was in a committed relationship. But now we're talking a lot and I remember why I was so attracted to her when we first met.  Women like her are few and far between but unfortunately the distance between us is father than a few miles.  She certainly is great though. Awakened a few things inside that have laid dormant for quite some time, to the point I thought they may be dead.  We shall see, I'm not certain if she feels the same even though her banter is typically playful and frisky.  Oh women, you are so difficult and dangerous.

Can't Take a Joke?

Apparently some of my friends co-workers hate me because of some stuff I said when I was drunk.  Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke.

Odds and Ends and Girlfriends

Recently I've been at odds with myself.  I find myself, partially, desiring a girlfriend.  Yet a large part of me doesn't want the complications that come along with that kind of commitment.  Yes, I do have issues with commitment.  That's what happens when you get burned.  Some people learn (me), some don't.  Although I do miss certain things.  Companionship and caring of another person.  But I'm picky, I'm not going to just settle on whoever is willing to fill the gf void because I feel lonely sometimes.  That's just a ridiculous thing to do.  That's how people end up in long term relationships with the wrong person that turn into marriage with the wrong person.  They build up this comfort level and they feel like that's what matters.  Stupid.  Don't send yourself head first into a marriage because you're comfortable with someone.  My couch is incredibly comfortable but I'm not trying to have intimate relations with the damn thing.

Monday Mashup

Got a few wins at work today.  Feel a little less lost on the current project but I'm not sure that's saying much.  Hopefully tomorrow will clear up a few more things and soon I will know a little about what I'm doing instead of absolutely nothing.  Set up an event for a group of friends.  Just to hang out and enjoy a few brews.  Should be a good time.

Gave a friend a ring.  Just wanted to hear a friendly voice today.  I have a very difficult time here sometimes.  There's just so much more I want out of life than what I currently have, it's hard to describe, but sometimes I get a little down.  It was just nice to talk to my friend, see what she was up to, joke around a bit.  She is one of the nicest people I've ever met so she always puts me in a good mood.  During our conversation she mentioned her admiration for not only the number of friends I had but the number of quality friends I sitll keep in touch with throughout time.  I guess it is pretty true.  Perhaps it's for selfish reasons, maybe I need that in my life, I don't know.  Can't be a bad thing though.  Even with the friends I have I still feel there are too few good and great friends in this world.  More people should have the quality of friends I do.

Found myself wishing I had the means to travel somewhere new once again.  Perhaps that's the kind of job I should get, although I don't know what jobs let you travel to cool new places constantly.  Anybody know the answer to that?

Time to hit the hay.  Didn't get a chance to work on a story I wrote the pretext for the other day.  I really like where the story is going, I'd like to elaborate on it but just didn't have time today.  I should tomorrow, coming straight home after work so I'll spend some time on that.  Time to see what the sandman brings tonight.

Wishing I had a good movie

It's kind of a lazy Sunday.  Had some lunch with friends, did a few things around the house, delicious food on the docket for dinner.  Just wish I had a new movie I wanted to watch.  Damn Netflix streaming lets me down sometimes.  The streaming content is getting much better.  Did you know that they offered Blockbuster the ability to buy them out for $50 million in 2000?  Now they are worth waaaaay more than that and Blockbuster filed for bankruptcy.  NICE!  The studios need to get with it and just allow all their stuff to be streamed.  Wishful thinking, I think at least one studio will always be stubborn.

Starving for Hip-Hop

It's been quite a while since the last time I've found a hip-hop artist to be excited about.  I have a wide range of musical interest but hip-hop is one of my absolute favorites.  I'm talking about Common, Mos Def, Talib Kweli, Lupe Fiasco, Digable Planets, Da Bush Babees, Aesop Rock, Blackalicious and many more.  Look up any and all of those people.  Excellent artists.  Da Bush Babees album Gravity is one of my all time favorite albums and I listen to it often.  The last artist I heard and became excited about is a guy named Random aka Mega-Ran.  He uses a lot of 8-Bit samples in the tracks and raps about nerdy stuff.  I can relate to that.  Check him out if you haven't heard of him, http://megaran.com/, he has a lot of excellent music.  On top of that, I ran into him a few times and he's a cool guy so I definitely give him props when I can.  I'll have to look a little harder for the hip-hop.  The thing I'm most excited about currently?  Baseball is BACK!  Yes it's spring training, but I love spring training.

Just a Guy

I can't help it, if you're a hot chick then I want to sleep with you.  That's just the way it works as a guy.  Still, I feel like a scumbag sometimes.  Like when that hot chick who's my friend tells me that her and her boyfriend or husband are separating, I feel bad for her.  At the same time, in the back of my head, a voice says "YES! Back on the market."  It's a shitty thing to think but it's the truth.  If that's a girl that you wanted but couldn't have because she was married, of course you think the same thing.  Don't lie and say "No" because you're only lying to yourself, nobody believes you.  That voice? That's the inner brain manifestation of your penis' consciousness.  To be honest, most of the time, us guys don't have a shot with whoever this girl is but that doesn't stop us from wanting it to happen.  But then, every once in a while when the planets align correctly, it's a girl that confessed to being attracted to you when they were still locked down and said something to the effect of "if I weren't taken ..." When that girl becomes available, you have to jump on your chance.  If you don't that window of opportunity is going to close.  Most likely she doesn't view you as relationship material, she wants that rebound before she locks herself down again because in all likelihood she's a relationship person.  How do I know this?  Is she a woman?  She's a relationship person.  I know many women who have said that they weren't, and they might not be at the time (usually during college), but at some point a switch flips.  So let me be fully clear on this, I do not at any time condone hooking up with someone while they have a boyfriend or husband, but if that is no longer the case and that window of opportunity presents itself, you send yourself flying through that thing like a guy who just got kicked by Chuck Norris in an episode of Walker Texas Ranger.

Life goals, Batteries and ADD

I think, more difficult than obtaining a goal is figuring out what, exactly, is your goal.  I have some very broad goals in life, own my own business, get super rich and do whatever I want, travel the world, be happy.  Doesn't have to be exactly in that order, if I could be happy the entire time that would be great, but you get the picture.  Ultimately I would truly like to leave an indelibly excellent mark on the world.  Maybe I could solve global warming or fix starvation in a country.  That would be spectacular.  I'd truly like to make an everlasting impact on the world in a positive way (As everlasting as one human being can possibly be).  The thing about all of these goals is I don't know exactly how to get to that point.  I don't know what kind of business I want to start.  It would have to be something I'm passionate about or it wouldn't have any chance of succeeding.  It also needs the potential and ability to grow and be profitable or my dream of making tons of money is shot.  Money isn't all that important right?  Wrong.  All the stuff I want to do in life requires money.  WEIRD how it works like that.  I need a place to live, $, vehicle, $, food and water, $.  I like to go out and have a good time with friends, $$, and I love to travel and want to travel the world, $$$$$.  Sure, I could go places 1 or 2 at a time, but I want to enjoy these places while I'm young and have the energy to do all the fun stuff.  Right now I'm trying to work out a way to do the living and the traveling by hopefully being able to get a job in Europe.  I could travel around Europe without it having to be as expensive as it would be from the states, and eventually move back.

On a completely unrelated note: Somebody needs to make a serious breakthrough in battery technology.  My phone is awesome, my battery life sucks.  At the very least my phone should be able to go a solid day and a half with my constant checking of social networks and e-mail as well as web surfing.  This is pretty much bullshit.  Somebody do something NOW!!!!

Is there something I can do, other than getting a prescription, to help with ADD?  I'm pretty positive I have ADD, I would like to get checked out and most of the process would be covered by my medical insurance but the process is kind of ridiculous.  And the thing about the ridiculous process is, I have ADD so I keep forgetting or get side tracked whenever I start to initiate the process.  Also bullshit.

UPDATE: Someone told me something a short while after I made this post: "Focus on what you want to learn, not what you want to be."  Seems to make sense.  I suppose if I just focus on what I want to learn and what I love it may lead to in the right direction for me.

Suck It World!

Yeah, whatever.  I have a good life and all that but it's not what I want it to be yet so I have to keep working.  Should I be content or happy with what I have?  I'm sure a lot of people think I should but I don't want to be a desk jockey for the next 40 years of my life.  If I'm going to do that I can at least work for myself.  I do what I do right now and it's good.  But it's not great.  I want great.  I feel like if I settle for less than that I will always be semi-happy.  Never truly feel accomplished.  Honestly I don't know what's going into this thing but I'm a nerd at heart so there undoubtedly will be some nerdy stuff here.

I have a very technical and nerdy job at the moment but I definitely want to write a script and make or have the movie made.  Whichever.  I love sci-fi and I really feel there is a lack of good sci-fi movies.  Heard an interview with a musician the other day who said something along the lines of "musicians want a certain type of song to be made and they wait and nobody makes it so they make it themselves."  I suppose that's what I'll have to do with the sci-fi movie genre.  I will probably use this blog a little as a tool for developing some writing, maybe just hash out pieces of a story and smash them into a whole.  It's tough to tap into any creative side when your job and life is simply full of technical work.  On a related note, I'm pretty stoked about Cowboys and Aliens.  Seems like a pretty original flick with a lot of potential.  We'll see how it turns out.